Today was the first official day of potty training our youngest child. While washing the child's new big kid underwear I decided there needs to be an emotional guidebook for moms while leaving the diaper era. Yes, I am excited to not have to buy diapers for the first time in over eight years. I am excited that the odor of dirty diapers will no longer be a worry. I am heart broken that the season of babies is over for us. As I was folding our youngest child's underwear, I started crying....the ugly face cry. My husband looked at me in horror and confusion. He thought it was because I wanted to get the child different underwear...24 hours later he still doesn't understand how I feel. I guess this is a mommy-thing.
When "they" say time goes by so quickly, I always agree. I don't think I realized that until this ending of an era for us. This is the first time we have had a chapter close while having children. I don't like it. I don't want to end this chapter. But, as my husband stated: "If we have another baby every time one is potty trained, we will never stop having babies." That sounds like a plan! I secretly envy the Duggars....a houseful of children. But, reason states we can't do that.
So while I celebrate each triumphant potty trip and explain that we do not poop on furniture, I will savor it. I will hold in my tears. I will remind myself each day, that every day gone is another step to another chapter closing...and yet another exciting chapter opening.
I choose to embrace the diaper free chapter. I choose to celebrate having a purse without a spare diaper in it. I choose to buy, wash, and fold those underwear with dry eyes...maybe!
With bittersweet joy,
XOXO,
Rebecca
